This Christmas, I got a new Bible. It has illustrations of certain verses on the sides of the pages. As I was flipping through the Bible, looking at all the pretty written out verses, I saw one that stuck out to me. Exodus 3:14 “I am who I am.” Yes, God was talking to Moses about what to say to the Israelites. Yet, these powerful words are so comforting for me to read.
These past months has been stressful. Between school, family priorities, and wanting to hang out with my best friend, it’s been hard to maintain a relationship with God. To be completely honest, I haven’t had much motivation to read my Bible, talk to God, and worship Him. My focus has not been on the right things. I have felt discouraged and lonely.
I read this quote the other day that said “If you were in a relationship and you only spent 5 minutes a day talking to your boyfriend/girlfriend, would you expect to have a strong and healthy relationship? No, obviously not. You spend time talking and getting to know the person as much as you can when you want something to be strong and last forever. So, why don’t you spend much time with God? How do you expect to continue to be in a good relationship with God if you down put in the time?” I immediately felt convicted. I know I need to spend more time with God. I know why I have been feeling discouraged and lonely. Yet, I still don’t do what I need to do.
The good thing is, God never fails to remind me who He is. He is who He is. He loves us perfectly. He sent His own son to die for the girl who sometimes prioritizes friends and family over a relationship with Him. He gives us undeserving grace. He is waiting for us to come back to him. I think it’s pretty cool how when you feel like you are at your lowest, God shows us certain things that remind us who He is.